19th September

19th September I learnt that:

1) even getting a small parcel of new and beautiful papers and chalk ink didn't make me want to do any crafting today.

2) being on your own all day means you probably don't learn much.

3) one of my friends has recently got her new baby. Congrats to mummy, daddy and big brother.

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

18th September

18th September I learnt that:

1) I should assume I'm only being told half a story as I so often am.

2) some people just aren't that interested.

3) it's easy to stay in PJs all day.

4) the world doesn't stop you, it's you who tries to stop the world. Getting it started again is the hardest part.

5) buses don't always go where you need them to neither early nor late enough

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

17th September

17th September I learnt that:

1) it's lovely having the occasional child-free girlie brunch and day with my cousin.

2) chilli's delicious especially when someone else cooks it.

3) it is possible to get dairy free ice-cream from a shop nearby and very yummy it is too.

4) I get panicky if I'm sitting in a pub for a couple of hours. Didn't stop the evening being great, just wish I felt more like I could cope with things.

5) a great night out doesn't have to cost much. Free pub quiz and a glass of OJ, even if we didn't win.

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

16th September

16th September, I learnt that:

1) I can get ready on time to go out, sometimes!!

2) buying a bargain bright top can make you feel a little brighter. Even better when it was marked down from £10 to £5, but the till said £3 and you have a voucher in your bag to cover that. And doesn't stick to your hips like scrummies do.

3) going to a shopping website to buy 'just one thing' rarely ends up as that especially if there's a sale on. Mind you, I justified it because of the bargain top.

4) if you're not around somewhere you frequently hang out, you're sometimes not missed at all and life goes on without you.

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

15th September

15th September I learnt that:

1) even the doctor thinks I'm depressed. I've been given anti-depressants and am being referred to counselling.

2) I really feel I should be shut away from the world until I improve as I'm no good to be around.

3) a short nap in the afternoon helps me to feel more awake for the evening. Fantastic especially as I only get a couple of hours sleep during the night.

4) comfort eating only adds lbs to the scales. Knew that already, but it got confirmed again when I went on the scales in Boots today!!! :o

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

14th September

14th September I learnt that:

1) after answering a questionnaire (or two) and going through a few check lists, it all points to me having depression.

2) after finally braving it and making the phone call, it's impossible to get a doctor's appointment to discuss help I may be able to get for the above if that's what I actually have.

3) although it's sunny outside, I'm still really scared at the prospect of having to actually go out in it, which thankfully I don't have to today.

4) I still don't feel like crafting which is why this is a words only journal at the moment. I will complete the IRL album sometime and soon hopefully.

5) it's easier to add music to my phone than I thought. Managed to do it tonight for the first time :D

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

13th September

13th September I learnt that:

1) I should eat little and often.

2) too often something is not used/forgotten about/all but discarded until someone else wants it and will make daily use of it, then you start to wonder what you've been missing out on. 'Too little, too late' usually.

3) it's lovely coming home to a gorgeous 'non-birthday' card from a friend.

4) I don't have as much patience as I used to have.

5) I can't tell someone how I really feel about them because I know what it's like to be on the receiving end of negative feelings. Instead I've written it down in a Word document to delete when I feel ready to.

6) milk is too often used in a product when it doesn't have to be (Walkers salt & vinegar crisps), but it's a fantastic feeling (and taste) when something I used to love doesn't have milk in (Tesco chocolate limes).

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx