14th September

14th September I learnt that:

1) after answering a questionnaire (or two) and going through a few check lists, it all points to me having depression.

2) after finally braving it and making the phone call, it's impossible to get a doctor's appointment to discuss help I may be able to get for the above if that's what I actually have.

3) although it's sunny outside, I'm still really scared at the prospect of having to actually go out in it, which thankfully I don't have to today.

4) I still don't feel like crafting which is why this is a words only journal at the moment. I will complete the IRL album sometime and soon hopefully.

5) it's easier to add music to my phone than I thought. Managed to do it tonight for the first time :D

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx

12th September

12th September, I learnt that:

1) whatever you did to yourself/your body as you were growing up, has an enormous effect and impact on how/who you are as a person today.

2) having time to do what you want is ok, but having too much time isn't.

3) I'm actually looking forward to going home after house-sitting this week.

4) I prefer to be indoors in my own room, rather than outside and mixing with people. I feel safer there for some strange reason.

5) I'm getting very forgetful as I hadn't even realised until Mum phoned today and told me I'd left my make-up bag and brush in her car on Wednesday. Shows how often I go out as I almost always wear make-up when I leave the house.

6) trying to do something nice for someone, too often gets thrown back in your face and you wonder why you bothered in the first place.

Love and hugs, Sarah C xx